Saturday, February 18, 2006
things are not getting better... even though they seem to be... i just knew it from my heart... this time i'm serious but they are not... they just can't seem to notice... nobody does...
she seem to care about me, but it is just on the surface... she can't go right deep in my heart because for so many years my heart is not open to anybody expect him... i know she tried... but i'm just sorry... i feel wierd and i just can't do it... i know she really care about me and i appreciate that but i just can't do it... i'm not like them... have this all along... i just can't do it... how i wish i can... i really want to do it... but my heart is not open... my soul is not listening... every part of my body just can't do it... i'm really sorry if i'm cold to you but i just can't... i need someone to talk to... anyone... help...
jiawei and joleena had gone to malaysia... i felt wierd... hope they come back soon... and enjoy yourselves...
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